by SG’s Team Agony feat. Charley, Fabrizia, and Morgan
Let us answer life’s questions – because great advice is even better when it comes from SuicideGirls.
[Charley in Of Yesteryear ]
Q: I met a wonderful woman and love her very much. But, at the time of our meeting and for the first few years of our relationship, I was dealing with feelings of worthlessness, which led to a type of sexual addiction. I realize now because of all the sex addiction reality shows. I basically kept seeking sexual conquests to prove my own self worth. Never really realizing sex didn’t make you valuable to anyone. I wasn’t loyal. And she caught me in video chat mutual masturbation with an ex-girl friend during her pregnancy.
A year ago she decided to end our engagement and take our now 2-year old son, using the sins of my past, 4 years earlier as an excuse. She did this while I was in hospital suffering a Multiple Sclerosis exacerbation and using the last of my savings to keep our apartment. This caused a lot of ill will with my family.
We agreed on joint custody, 3.5 days each, and entered a purely sexual relationship. After nine months of this arrangement and being told over and over again that I should find someone, I did. When she found out she became enraged, and during a drunken night of sex she called the new girl and had her listen to us having sex, ending the new relationship. She claimed that I betrayed her again, although for 9 months she had told me to pursue other women. When I mentioned this, her response was that we were still having sex. Yes, but she was telling me to pursue a real relationship with someone else at the same time.
We continued to have sex on days when our son was with his grandparents, and purchased several sex toys and videos for our entertainment. I am on permanent Social Security Disability, so these purchases where a slight economic burden, but I wanted to maintain some relationship with her. I still really do love her, and I wish I had been able to see my problems before we met. I blame myself for what happened. I want to know if I should still pursue relations with her in hopes that we will reconcile – or if this is a fool’s dream?
Our son is almost 3 now, and I don’t want him to be the silent victim of his messed up parents.
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