by Laurelin

Winter is coming. Maybe I have been way too involved in reading the Game of Thrones series, but that phrase has been running the show these past few months. Winter is coming, cold weather, boyfriend season. It’s time to stockpile your nuts in anticipation of frozen ground, time to find some people to hibernate with, someone to snuggle with to save money on that heat bill. Whatever the reason, winter IS coming… and so far I think my stockroom is looking alright.

My best friend looked at me the other day and cautiously asked if she could tell me something. I said of course, and she slowly said, “I don’t think you’re over your ex-boyfriend.”

I laughed. “What was your first clue?” I said.

“Thank God,” she replied. “Well, you never came out and said it, so I didn’t want to bring it up.”

She’s right, although I feel like I always bring it up. For some reason lately his name has never been far from my mind, and even now, months later, I feel almost worse off than when it had just happened. It doesn’t make sense to me; it’s not like we had this incredible connection that I felt left a hole in my life. I have managed to maintain a normal work relationship with him, I have managed to keep calm when I need to and to keep a smile on my face. But I guess I never really had that healing ‘out of sight out of mind’ time period, and for some reason my mind is starting to play tricks on me, making me think I made a mistake. Making me wish that things hadn’t ended.

It’s not like I haven’t been dating and trying to move on. I went on a coffee date with a stranger, I’ve marched into the bar across the street and given my number to a bartender that I’ve always thought was cute. He called, and we’ve been meeting for drinks here and there, but in the back of my mind I think I’m doing it just for the challenge. When I go out with any of these guys I truly am looking for a connection. I don’t want to randomly hook up. I don’t even mean to stockpile for winter, it’s not nice. But all of a sudden I’m feeling wishy-washy, and for whatever reason on the first date we’re holding hands, and I’m smiling sweetly but really, I’m screaming, “WHO DOES THAT? GET ME OUTTA HERE!”

The other night after getting drinks with one guy (and a ride home from another) I decided to return a phone call from a far off ex-boyfriend, he had been calling during the date and I kept pushing him to voicemail.

“How was your date?” he asked.

“It was alright,” I say. “I miss you,” and I mean it. This guy and I are strictly friends now, and he moved to Los Angeles recently. We talk on the phone often, but he is greatly missed.

“Get in a cab and come to the Park Plaza hotel,” he says. “I’m in Boston.” Two minutes later I am back in a cab and heading downtown at two a.m., certain the cab driver thinks I’m a hooker. I pull up outside the hotel and walk through the doors into the most beautiful lobby I have ever seen. Crystal chandeliers hang from cathedral ceilings and music plays softly, drifting around the biggest Christmas tree I have ever seen. I walk to the tree and look around until I hear him call my name, and we just hug for a few minutes. I feel like I’m in a movie, a good holiday heartwarming moment. He was someone who left a hole in my life when he left, and sometimes a hug from a friend at two a.m. in front of a fancy hotel Christmas tree is just what you need to feel whole again.

I spend the night, but we just talk and fall asleep. I laugh to myself going over the day in my head, a full shift at work, a burlesque ballet performance, drinks with one guy, a lift home from another, back in a cab to meet another at a hotel at three a.m. My best friend’s words echo in my head and I say them out loud to my friend and he nods knowingly. I’m not over my ex. I feel like I’m taking a huge step backwards. I shouldn’t have gone out with any of these guys, it’s not fair to them. I’m not really giving them a chance, I’m just trying to fill a space where something is missing. I sigh and snuggle up, the hotel room is cold, and winter is coming.

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by Katherine Suicide

A column which highlights Suicide Girls and their fave groups.

This week, Katherine Suicide gives us a high flying tour of SG’s Aerial Dance Group.

Members: 435 / Comments: 1,358

WHY DO YOU LOVE IT?: I’ve always been fascinated with pole dance but I never thought of it as a form of aerial dance. There are so many beautiful forms of aerial dance I now know about and plenty of videos for anyone looking to start out or get better!

DISCUSSION TIP: Appreciate the art form, be open-minded. They’re a super friendly bunch :]

BEST RANDOM QUOTE: “Ew tits, get them away from me.”

MOST HEATED DISCUSSION THREAD: None are particularly heated, everyone is so chilled out! But a popular thread is “Photos of You in Action” – there are some STUNNING images there.

WHO’S WELCOME TO JOIN?: Everyone with an interest in aerial dance! Even just the fans or those starting out, like me!

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by Laurelin

The internet. It’s everywhere, connecting everything all the time. People don’t need to shop outside the house anymore, you can just order whatever you want from the internet and have it delivered. Clothes, shoes, groceries and…men? I have been aware of internet dating for a few years now, and I always turned up my nose at the thought of it. Seriously, if you can’t get out into the world and meet and connect with someone on your own than you probably should stop trying.

That’s an ignorant thing to say, I’m acutely aware of that now. Not everyone is [un] lucky enough to be in bars every night where members of the opposite sex are foaming at the mouth and leaving phone numbers scribbled on beer soaked cocktail napkins. But the other day I got to thinking. Maybe I have been going about this all wrong. I know I tend to meet the same type of guy over and over again at bars: young party types with more muscles than brains. Internet dating, while a product of a technological world, seems to take dating back to basics: conversation and actually getting to know someone.

After a talk with a girlfriend about her experiences in the world on online dating, I wound up joining a site that was basically just another app for my iPhone. My girlfriends and I started off my just browsing the guys just like we would online shop. Look at this one, ooooh, look at that one, he’s tall, cute, this one has a good job, this one has pictures of his cat. It was quite addicting. Soon we were getting a few messages a day and spending nights at work reading them and giggling. People have no shame online; some of the messages were dirty, some had poetry, some were simple and to the point. Some actually made me laugh, and one day I found myself replying, and before I knew it I was getting to know this… stranger.

He was nothing like me, and was like no one I would ever normally meet in a bar. Messaging back and forth online, we got to know a little about one another, answering questions that should have come out right away with other boyfriends but that never came up while we were too busy chugging beer and sleeping in. Then this guy asked the inevitable question– want to meet in person? I froze. I don’t know. Was it safe? I HATE DATING. I don’t even like going on dates with people I sort of know. As social of a person as I am, just the though of an actual date with someone I’m trying to get to know is more terrifying than bungee jumping into the grand canyon.

I took a breath and clicked reply. “Yes,” I said. “Let’s meet for coffee.” (Coffee?! Coffee?! It’s not beer!! What do I do?!) So we did. The day before Thanksgiving I found myself sitting in a coffee shop in Harvard Square, awaiting a stranger. He came, and he was just like his pictures. Tall, cute, and so nice. He was in grad school and had just moved to Boston, we came from similar families and while there was sometimes a lull in the conversation we managed to get through about an hour before deciding to part ways. I have never been more proud of myself, thinking outside the box and making myself take a leap into the unknown to try something new and scary.

I don’t think that the whole experience was exactly for me, but I did learn that I can see why it’s for a lot of people. It makes a lot of sense now, and it’s kind of nice to know that in the future should I want to meet someone new I can always try it again. But for now, I gratefully turn back to my safe bar scene, and the comforts of a fully stocked bar to help me get through conversation. I don’t think I want to date anyone for a while, whether in the digital or the analogue. The guys I meet normally, the young and muscled, the hipsters, the career bartenders, they are what I need right now. They’re all helping me get over a heartbreak that, after trying to date someone new, I’ve come to realize is still a bit too fresh. I need some more time I guess, and probably another martini…

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by Blogbot

Artist / SG Member Name: S.O.A.P. / sooaap

Mission Statement: Aside from drawing as a child, I’ve only been creating art for the last couple of years. I like to take already established images that catch my eye and retell their story from a different perspective. I’m inspired by everything in my environment including art, emotion, people, weather, music, culture, etc… Contrast and a sense of brooding are reoccurring themes in my work. Being manic depressive is also a big influence.

Medium: Paper, photographs, pencil, pen, markers, crayons, books, newspaper, magazines, Photoshop. I have designs on branching out to watercolor soon and plan on taking some introductory art classes to expand the mediums that I work with.

Aesthetic: I am a portrait/character artist by nature. I like to choose images as reference that convey a specific emotion, whether it be by facial expression or body language, and reconstruct that emotion in my own personal way.

Notable Achievements: Aside from selling some works locally and being featured on this site, my most notable achievement is the feedback I get from others. My favorite comment is that my work/style is different from anything they’ve seen. That’s kind of what I strive for.

Why We Should Care: I don’t really care who cares, I create because it is a sorely needed positive outlet and balances me.

I Want Me Some: Right now I post my work on SuicideGirls in the Artists and Fan Art groups and on my Tumblr page. If you are in Seattle and see a flyer for a show involving Big Sur, tear it down and you get some for free. I will eventually sell prints, but I’m not there quite yet.

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by Tarion Suicide

A column which highlights Suicide Girls and their fave groups.

This week, in preparation for the coming apocalypse, Tarion Suicide gives us the 411 on SG’s Zombie Hunters Group.

Members: 2,824 / Comments: 20,073

• WHY DO YOU LOVE IT?: This group has threads covering everything you need to know about zombies and the impending apocalypse. It ensures that every member has a “zombie plan” and the best possible chance of survival. Members discuss everything from the best choice of weapons to the most effective safe house. If you’re into zombies you will find info on the best books, games, movies, and TV shows right here!
• DISCUSSION TIP: This is a fun group, so don’t be too serious.
• BEST RANDOM QUOTE: “Do not set zombies on fire! They will run around and catch everything else on fire!”
• MOST HEATED DISCUSSION THREAD: The Walking Dead! Official TV Thread – everyone has an opinion on this show!
• WHO’S WELCOME TO JOIN?: All those who want to survive the zombie apocalypse.

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by Blogbot

This Sunday hosts Nicole Powers (SG’s Managing Editor) and Lacey Conner (our resident recovering reality TV star from VH1’s Rock of Love and Charm School) will be joined by the utterly rocking LA bands 9 Electric and Butcher Babies, who’ll be in-studio ahead of their joint show at the Roxy on Monday night (Dec 5th).

Tune in to the world’s leading naked radio show for two hours of totally awesome tunes and extreme conversation – and don’t let yo momma listen in!

Listen to SG Radio live Sunday night from 10 PM til Midnight on Indie1031.com

Got questions? Then dial our studio hotline digits this Sunday between 10 PM and midnight PST: 323-900-6012

And cyberstalk us anytime on Facebook and Twitter.

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by Blogbot

Artist / SG Member Name: NerdMachine (though I prefer to be referred to by my professional name, Lord Sir Adam Markiewicz)

Mission Statement: To create comics that you might find interesting, that might make you think, and will hopefully entertain you.

Medium: Depends on the illustration. Generally, I use India ink on Bristol board. Sometimes I use PITT brush pens on Paris paper. All coloring is done in Photoshop.

Aesthetic: American comic art.

Notable Achievements: Last year, I wrote and illustrated Casual Fridays, a short comic for Domai.com. The story sucked, but people seemed to like the art.

Why We Should Care: That’s a surprisingly good question.

I Want Me Some: You can find me and my work via my website, blog, Twitter and Facebook. I am available for commission work. You can message me through SuicideGirls, or email me at admancomics@yahoo.com

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